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The Last Snowbird an unpublished collection of personal notes, insights and commentary while solo sailing every inch of the Inter Coastal Waterway, from Connecticut to Florida and return Introduction These pages contain observations and reflections from a solo sailor on his first voyage meandering the length of the Atlantic Intracoastal Waterway from Connecticut to Florida. He accidentally left late in autumn and purposefully lingered in small towns, winning the award for being the season’s Last Snowbird. His vehicle was a modest 32 foot Irwin sloop named Dust In The Wind, powered by an aging Atomic-4 gasoline engine. His companion was a 10-year old golden retriever, Chubby, who “was a great companion and lousy crew.” On the surface this is a story of a retired ICW newbie who bumps and sails and motors down the ICW – and narrates his experiences along his route. However, this is not so much a travelogue as an entertaining and incisive potpourri of errors admitted, learnings compiled, skills mastered and insights connecting the dots between sailing and life. The author implores his readers to “see the ICW before you die”. Reading these pages, meandering as they do through the South and through life, may wet your appetite to put the ICW on your MUST DO list.
The Last Snowbird - strike one Chubby, my faithful golden retriever, and I set sail from Beacon Point Marina, Housatonic River, Shelton, Connecticut to catch the ebbing tide and realize our dream of becoming intimately acquainted with the InterCoastal Waterway. I’m 65 and Chubby is 8. Since the conventional wisdom is that you can convert a dog’s age to the human’s equivalent by multiplying by 7, I figure that Chubby is 56 and gradually catching me. So these two old men are setting out in an equally old boat, Dust In The Wind, a 1971 Irwin 32’ sloop, with an old Atomic-4 gasoline engine. We are not exactly in Bristol condition, but what we lack in equipment we make up with love for each other and reckless enthusiasm for this voyage. We moor for the night at the mouth of the Housatonic River in Stratford in light rain and an outside temperature of 50 degrees F. With one candle, one dog and one human the interior temperature is 52 degrees F. I'm learning that insulation is NOT this boat’s strong point. The next morning we awake to crappy weather and evaluate my options. The good news is I have local area knowledge of Long Island Sound. The bad news is winds are 25 knots – at the margin of what I think Dust and I are capable of handling. But I rationalize that I am safe enough in LIS and this will be a good test that I’d rather face here than in strange waters. Also, I have multiple escape routes. I know the harbors along the route, or I can always turn around and return to Stratford. I make a decision to stick the nose out into Long Island Sound. So we set off westward down Long Island Sound, and promptly sailed into a confluence of errors. Around Bridgeport the wind increases to 35 knots. My first error was to not heed the old saying “reef often and early”. I hate it when I know something intellectually but I can’t make the leap to put it into practice. I find myself over-powered. When I try to second-reef the big 150% genoa it gets away from me and promptly unfurls itself completely. I can’t get it under control, and worse than that I can’t control the boat’s course. It lays broadside to the wind, and I struggle winching and furling for about an hour and finally get it mostly furled. I am wet and cold and struggling physically, when I get the engine started and point head-to-wind back to Stratford in a nasty 4-foot chop. We are near the mouth of the river, just 100 yards from “safe harbor” when suddenly the flogging genoa clew tears from the sail and in an instant the genoa sheet goes overboard and wraps around the prop. A few seconds later the engine labors and gives up. Now we can neither sail nor motor and we are 100 yards from the harbor breakwater. I am breathless and fighting to stay rational in spite of my fear of being pounded to death of a breakwater when I call the Coast Guard. The distinction between "may day" and "pan pan" escapes me. It's my perception that this is life-threatening and they answer my voice-wavering "may-day" call. And then as if by magic Dust decides to heave to without a genoa. She sets herself on a steady course 45 degrees to the wind and drifts parallel to the shore at about one knot. I have never seen anything like this! It becomes apparent that she is neither going aground nor to sea. Magic or miracle... she is saving all of us. She is smarter than I, and calmer too. Sometimes it is best to take your hand off the wheel. It is 45 minutes later that SeaTow arrives and above the din I welcome the captain's greeting: "what the hell are you doing out here?" He tows me into Milford Harbor without further incident, and we settle the bill. What a relief to reach the calm waters of the jetty and be in "safe harbor." We are safe!! But I am chilled to the bone. Chubby is sopping wet and looks half his normal fluffy size. Uncle Bob and sister Jean drive down and chauffeur us home ... for the rest of the winter. We got all the way from the Housatonic River to Bridgeport (approximately 10 miles -- or 8 mintes by car). And that's how my dream to travel the ICW ended in 2005....a complete and swift ignominious defeat.
The boating and sailing lessons were many and worth every expensive penny! I put a clutch in the jib furling line so it could never get away from me again. I learned to change the Genoa to a 100% jib when expecting 15 knots of wind. And I resolved to increase my sailing competency. And so on. I also recall from my flying days that most recreational aircraft accidents are not due to a single catastrophic failure, but rather a confluence of circumstances that combine against you. And so it is at sea. In either environment the risk is ever-present. The job of the pilot or mariner is to be as competent and experienced as he can possibly be, to have the best equipment he can afford, and then to stack all the cards in his favor before choosing to depart. This minimizes, but doesn't eliminate defeat, when dancing with Nature. There are old pilots, and there are bold pilots, but there are no old, bold pilots. I was on the wrong side of prudent today, but I lived to learn from it.
Ah, but a man's reach should
exceed his grasp - Should a man step into the space beyond his reach? My answer is Yes, in spite of past embarrassment, peril, failure, or expense.
The Last Snowbird - strike two It's a year later and deja vu al over again! Chubby and I awake to a scene of déjà vu. Once again we are caught in an early winter nor’easter. Winds are from the north with gusts to 25 knots, and I doubt I’ll go anywhere today except for a quick shore visit for Chubby’s relief and to fill two jerry-cans with gasoline. With 5 new gallons pourd into our tank our chores are done for the day. The front blows over that night and November 20 dawns with clear air and light winds. We prepare to depart, but the engine starts and then dies (thankfully before we leave the mooring). I finally examine the fuel and in it are globules that look like jellyfish. The fuel is thoroughly contaminated and completely useless. Globules have worked their way into the carburetor which has to be torn down and cleaned. I have been working on the engine from 0630 to to 1500 hours. I can get the engine running but I am out of options for obtaining clean fuel. I jurry-rig a direct feed from a fresh jerry can of fuel sitting in the cockpit. But I know it would be insane to be offshore New Jersey in rough seas with a fuel tank thrashing around the cockpit. I am uncomfortable with way-out-of-code rigging, but it works well enough to set out on a return voyage to Beacon Point Marina to put Dust up for the winter. Considering all factors, timing, a second impending cold front, my yacht’s systems, sailing solo, etc. with a rational mind and a broken heart I turn back eastward and motorsail toward home. I can see the jagged Manhattan skyline to the west framed against an orange sky. Goodbye Manhattan – goodbye ICW dream – not this year. Maybe next year – and maybe not. My consolation prize is that this year I am on the right side of being prudent. This year Chubby and I got all the way from the Housatonic River to City Island, NY (approximately 40 miles -- or 1 hour drive by car). And again, Bob and Jean drove me home from the marina. And that's how my dream to travel the ICW ended in absurdity in 2006. For several days I am in a deep funk. I dance between my dream and my pragmatism… beating myself up over not being better prepared, not leaving earlier, not having more money, etc. Shouda, woulda, coulda consumes my self-talk. If I am a competent and intelligent person, how come I am so incompetent and stupid!
The Last Snowbird - the third strike Dad was not a baseball fan, but in adverse circumstances he would say “three strikes and out”, and I revered him and internalized both his wisdom and hubris. Somehow the absurdity of attempting a 1,000 mile voyage and only making 10 miles (to Bridgeport) in year one, and only making 40 miles (to City Island, NY) in year two does not deter me. We are leaving with two brand new fuel tanks and a rebuilt fuel system, a clutch to control the jib, and a myriad of other upgrades. All systems are in order, and we are better prepared than ever with knowledge, with experience, and with spare parts. However we are still being pushed along with the old Atomic-4 gas engine. On Sunday, October 21. 2007 David and I set out from the Stuyvesant Yacht Club for Newport Marina in the Hudson River http://www.newportnj.com/ . Newport Marina is our preference over its more prominent Atlantic Highlands. The immediately adjacent community, numerous convenient choices of restaurants, and convenient subway to and from Manhattan make it the stop of choice on the Hudson. We limp in to Newport harbor with a rough running engine! After several conversations with our Atomic-4 engine guru, Don Moyer http://www.moyermarine.com/ I decide to purchase an electronic ignition. It’s a several day’s delay, and I am considering giving up, and taking on a modest winter challenge with guaranteed success – such as painting my bedroom. Just-in-time ‘angels’When Joseph Campbell describes the universal Hero’s Journey, he observes that in your darkest hour, lost in the forest and unknown, resources will show up to support you. I can’t explain ‘why’ this might be true, however it is true to my experience. On my lost Sunday Eddie just appeared without notice. I bumped into him on the dock, and he just came down to see how I was coming along. His moral support that day was invaluable. David continued to call, and do engine research and give me solutions. These two men were there at the tipping point. Additionally Don Moyer’s mix of patience with this pesky customer, and expertise with the pesky engine was invaluable. Without the support and encouragement of these “angels” who showed up in my circumstances, I would have given up the journey PERMANENTLY. I was that close when I installed the electronic ignition – the very best $100 investment I ever made. A
generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.
These three individuals embody selfless generosity -- by their nature. They could hardly be otherwise. They are magnetic to be around because they are themselves enthusiastic when others around them succeed. Their impact upon me stretches all the way from a helping hand to a deeper understanding of what defines the best of human behavior. Perhaps they are modeling a parent or perhaps a spiritual force moves through them. In any case they were there for me at the tipping point. It’s not a stretch to say “they changed my life’s direction.” I trust that they are refreshed by their acts, not merely by my thanks, but in ways they don't even connect to their interactions with me.
On Monday, October 29, 2007, in new seasonally low temperatures, we departed Newport Marina for the Verrazano Narrows bridge, the mouth of New York harbor and then the long offshore trip down the coast of New Jersey. We rounded Sandy Hook at 1600 hours, and made preparations. My goal is to have everything I’ll need at hand for the next 24 hours immediately at hand, so I neither have to go forward on deck during the night, nor below for food or a spotlight. Preparations included sail change, food prep including hot soup in a thermos, food, clothing, two flashlights and a spot light, and all navigation tools and charts. It was my helm and my nest, with everything in reach and nothing extra at hand. And settle in to run the full length of the New Jersey coast in the following 24 hours while staying awake and sharp. In the middle of the night I felt the home run.
Casting Off 2006 The act of casting off the lines is both a literal act and an undiscovered metaphor. I know the sequence of casting off the dock lines, and it is easy. As I do so I hold the illusion that I am prepared for this voyage. But I can not see over the near horizon. The familiar part is uncleating a line. The unfamiliar part is casting off my illusions about safety and security, and indeed everything that is in my known world. It is both ac act of faith and a reckless act. When I pull the last dock line aboard I am trading in my entire known zone for the un-known. I have never undertaken such a solo voyage in my life, but I feel strangely heroic -- and free -- freed from a prison of our own making. Question: how does one get out of the box of his own making, when the cosmic joke is that the instructions for so doing are printed on the outside of the box? Answer: cast off. Cast off the lines that constrain your soul. As I cast off I leave behind my
youthful dream to be president or a captain of industry, a new kind of
leadership is emerging within me. It’s not the formal power and fame of a
Winston Churchill or Jack Welsh that guides me now. My goals are no longer to
follow in the footsteps of the famous, but to live recklessly honoring what I
feel passionately in my soul. Personal leadership is not just dreaming, but
acting without reservation on what one feels passionately about.
Then I proposed renaming our
boat “Gail Force.” However
for some inexplicable reason, Gail was ambivalent about it. During this period
my sister-in-law sent us boat towels embroidered with “Gail
Force”. So Dust
sails on -- with a new head, and embroidered towels, and my loving memories of
Gail mixed with confusion and sadness. In so many ways she is aboard beside me
today. "see the ICW before you die"
So here I am, on the cusp of a
voyage stretching my limits -- committed to a dream more out of instinct than
rational thought -- of seeing the entire United States Inter Coastal Waterway…
before I die.
Dust In The Wind
Dust In The Wind only
marginally deserved the appellation "yacht". She is a 1971, 32 foot Irwin sloop.
Her standing rigging is old but stout, her spreaders are maple, and one of her
chain plates has been repaired. She has a cantankerous Universal Atomic-4 engine
which runs on
I must add the obligatory warning: Do NOT read any of my comments as navigational advice!! I am not responsible for your results (either the ones you like or the ones you don’t).
I have a full time job just
navigating my own life!
There is a whole gaggle of
boaters who leave New England in September or October and travel the Inter
Coastal Waterway to Florida and the Bahamas and points south to escape the
Canadian and New England winter. They are collectively called “snowbirds.” Most,
like the birds, are smart enough to leave during autumn, in a weather window
between the twin cruelties of hurricane season and winter weather. I joke that I
am the last snowbird because I am leaving in November. I’m concerned that the
weather will be punishing cold for this old man of age 68. (These fears were
realized more than once). Almost everyone you meet asks you where you are going, and they expect you to have an answer. I've experimented with various answers like "somewhere" and "nowhere". All the answers I’ve tried have been conversation killers. Sometimes I've needed the convenience of fixing a destination of time and place in order to meet friends along the way. Otherwise I have successfully resisted making up my mind, in favor of the grand experiment of seeing if I could actually live, one day at a time, one moment at a time –without much centering my life around planning or today’s goal. Sailing is the perfect venue for my grand experiment in shifting from planning to process. How far can I go with this paradigm? Philosophers tell us IT IS ALL PROCESS, and this point of view gradually soaks into my pores and becomes my moment-to-moment reality.
Take the road to Hana
Have I made my whole life about
getting somewhere -- even when I didn't know where somewhere was? Both Hana
and Valhalla have been my destinations. How long have I been rushing to get to
that elusive somewhere? How many years have I focused on ‘getting’ or ‘going’ that
I only saw friends and family pass by in my blurred vision? As the song says:
"Where is everybody going?" We are are rushing to get through the day as if the goal were to get
through life! Where have I been living along the goal-process continuum? I have
only recently cast off and already I can feel a shift. These
thoughts deeply challenged me one day in Georgia.
Free to go anywhere... or
nowhere
Free to be without friends... or with
The last snowbird: valuable pluses I never intended to be the Last Snowbird going south for the winter. It just turned out that way, and I found several unexpected advantages. There is no competition for space in tight anchorages and there is no need to raft up. The waters are quiet because shrimp boats and commercial fishing activity is out-of-season.
By avoiding the autumn crowds, there is no crowding at small anchorages, or for laundromats or for restaurant tables – anywhere. Not all of the advantages are obvious. You are transported into a bygone era pre-commercial, bygone era. Most places are barely open; some are deserted. You can stop at shrimp docks where the local industry is asleep and wander the equipment and wonder how it works, or if the owners will return next season. You can wander through a town where houses seem devoid of human life and imagine the lives of those who lived here without being disturbed by a human voice. You can walk a main street that feels like an abandoned movie set. You can be the only living soul in a ghost town or an abandoned cemetery where the only sounds are those imagined in your head. Everything is quiet. Another phenomenon exists. The tourist towns have stopped casting their seasonal tourist nets and have reverted to their natural state. Town citizens treat you like a person, not like the possibility of a sale.
When population is thin,
strangers welcome each other in a different manner.
The few
people you meet become a great
pleasure. They have
taken off their work images and are casual and real. They have time to
actually make your acquaintance and walk beside you for a while and willingly disclose how they feel. Secondly, there can also be problems obtaining fuel. Some marinas are closed for the season; some marinas are open but out of fuel; and some are on vacation for a few days when you arrive there. I arrived on January 01 in the town of Thunderbolt and the only marina in town was closed. I went another 10 miles to Isle of Hope and the local marina there was closed until January 03. It's an easy problem to fix. Just tie up at the fuel dock, get out a good book, and someone will eventually show up. I couldn’t risk going on while low on fuel. I’m an old pilot who knows the anxiety and risk of being low on fuel. I just won’t do it, so I was marooned there until days later when someone showed up at the fuel dock with the key to the pump. And finally, it may be challenging to get maintenance assistance, should you need it.
My inconvenience was fleeting,
and I liked little sleepy southern Isle of Hope.
it was just an unexpected part of the process... I was delighted by architecture and sundials -- and success in knowing I was in the perfect place (a cliché I've often resisted) and and practicing "it's all process." In summary you can mitigate the few disadvantages by following these four rules:
(1) buy the best clothing you can afford.
There is no need to be uncomfortable with proper clothing. The Last Snowbird is a title I’m increasingly appreciating.
A mark of The Last Snowbird is the ability to tarry. It’s easier in Virginia and
in the Carolinas. By the time you get to Georgia almost no one tarries. Cold
weather is persuasive, and the thought of continuing on SLOWLY wears thin. The
pull of the warmer Florida weather is great. Georgia waters are shallow and
sinewy, and on the surface Georgia appears to have few attractions. Not
so. Tarry when you are most impatient.
Remember to tarry in Georgia, or miss half the journey.
Happy New Year
And my self-talk started
up as fierce as the winds and louder than the howling. Can I really stay in the present and embrace this cold and relish this moment like any other? Or am I going to do sacrilege (violence?) to this God-given day and destroy it by wishing I were somewhere else? What irony to want to change the very circumstances that I have created with my choices? What arrogance to wish for my circumstances to be different! What hubris to even think I am in control of anything.
I shiver and light the alcohol stove and smile that I have further to go on my
physical, emotional and spiritual journey. Living in the moment is easy
when everything is going right. We are only tested when things are going
"wrong" and discomfort is high. My New Year's resolution is to practice
living in the moment. I can only cup my hands around the stove and calm my
self-talk and amuse .myself with the thought that I have more to learn.
See the ICW before it dies. I’ve encouraged many boaters to “see the ICW before you die”. But I’m thinking of changing the phrase to “see the ICW before it dies.” The ICW is under siege on two unchecked fronts. First: the consensus among the Washington lawmakers is that “the waterway just isn’t a priority this year.” I continue to be amazed how forgetful our government lawmakers are about their obligations. Letting the ICW decay into disuse is the same as letting I-95 fall into disuse, or not replacing a fallen road bridge. I’ve touched bottom well inside the channel several times in the past few days. And I’ve run aground fairly hard twice. Once I had to be towed off by TowBoat US and the second time I kedged off by myself (because I had been going slower in known shoaling areas). On two other occasions I kissed the bottom but continued on. And my draft is only 4’ 6”. At the current rate of silting in there will be little sense to “see the ICW before you die” because, like an animal going extinct, it died before you did. Secondly the shorefront of the ICW is being transformed by development. Rural areas are sprouting mega-homes. In some places one story shacks are being replaced by massive condo complexes. Instead of homes tucked under local trees that blend into the environment, the wealthy are building massive homes that stand upon the landscape. Everything seems to be for sale, and there seems to be no building codes to moderate gaudiness and garishness. Every year this blight on the natural land marches forward into pristine wilderness. Better get the last glimpse of what it used to be and what it could be before it’s completely cemented and painted over.
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